These next few weeks bring an onslaught of change to our household again. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety and pressure. Maybe if there wasn't a bunch happening all at once I wouldn't feel so overwhelmed.
Things that have been resolved that have certainly lightened the load are my settlement with my car and therefore a new car. I finally filed for a divorce and I'm just waiting for those loose ends to be tied up.
But unfortunately I am still waiting and waiting for some kind of resolution with pastorial authority in my life. And to be honest these next few moments scare me to death, I think that a big reveal is about to happen and I'm not sure if, after all this time, can I handle the outcome.
My confidence in pastorial authority has been wounded. I'd like to say that isn't the case but after almost 3 years now my issue still hasn't been resolved. I'm not going to take myself out from under the leadership of Apostolic Authority so my options are limited and my life is subject to this safety harness that is potentially stealing my life away. Such a contradiction it is...It's getting hard to breathe