Things seem to be getting back on track. It takes a lot of deliberate thought and discipline. I'm not sure if my feelings have changed about somethings but my logic doesn't give much room for my emotions to take over. There is a dull numb ache I try to ignore in my chest that every now and then again thuds against the shallow banks of the river of choices and circumstances. But day by day I put one foot in front of another and I breathe on breath at a time and I get through it. Learning to live a new way...