Sometimes it can be so easy for someone like me to take the mercy, grace, and the goodness of God for-granted. When you walk in it day after day and if you’re not careful the awe of redemption gets lost in the scenery of life. I’m not trying to sound high and mighty or clean and faultless but this weekend I came down from my perch of suburbia and walked around downtown for a bit. I felt like I was on sensory overload. There were so many people doing normal, crazy, or ridiculous things. I saw some lady yelling and cussing at a young boy telling him he was good for nothing and that he would never amount to anything. This boy was on the street corner juggling to raise funds for his hockey team and minding his own business. The lady…appeared to be homeless as she pushed around a baby stroller full of trash. Later I saw a drunk girl being held up by her friend as they staggered down the mall trying to appear normal and under complete control. Looking like 16 year olds but had to be somewhere in the 50’s. And to my complete shock I saw some man groping his girl friend between the legs as she encouraged more of the same behavior.
It had been some time since I had been around the “world”. I felt hopeless. I started to look at the faces of men and women old and young and felt like my hands were completely tied and that they would all suffer the same demise when they reach eternity’s door. I was surrounded by emptiness. All the money that was being spent, all the time and effort people went through to get a little attention. All the empty eyes behind drunken fabricated smiles of shallow happiness. And here am I in my clean white clothes appearing to have my act together but knowing full well that the inside of me is as dark and distorted as the scenery around me.
See, I am bravely admitting that recently the call or the lure of the world had my attention. Let me relate to a preaching I heard recently…John the revelator/beloved was in “great admiration” when he saw the “great whore”. She was arrayed in purple and scarlet and decked with gold and precious stones. The preaching warned that if John, the man who sat at the bosom of Jesus was admiring this woman then we too need to be careful not to get caught up in her allure.
Well, since my heart is deceitfully wicked I have be battling thoughts of wanting to take part in the world sinfulness. As a good Christian knows when these thoughts come they need to cast them down and brought into captivity. However, in the recent months I have been dwelling on them and they have gotten bigger and uglier. But after this weekend I felt like God showed me…this is the world. This is what it has to offer. Do you want it?
It’s like the blinders have been removed from my eyes. What was I thinking and dwelling on? Something that would only leave me empty with no fulfillment? How can I be so dumb? I thought about the move of God I felt in service earlier in the week…the Spirit of God was moving so thick amongst the youth I was with. The Word of God pierced my soul and heart and let me know that if I struggle and don’t let go of God He will bless me. Which was completely amazing because not to many days before I had envision my finger tips holding the alter of God barely hanging on but telling Him, no matter what I’m not going to let go. God knows where I am and He knows just what I need to get my eyes back into focus and I am so thankful to Him. It makes me think…”who is man that thou are mindful of him?” Why Lord do you care so much for me God? I can confirm that it’s the goodness of God that leads man to repentance.
Psalms 23:6- Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
It had been some time since I had been around the “world”. I felt hopeless. I started to look at the faces of men and women old and young and felt like my hands were completely tied and that they would all suffer the same demise when they reach eternity’s door. I was surrounded by emptiness. All the money that was being spent, all the time and effort people went through to get a little attention. All the empty eyes behind drunken fabricated smiles of shallow happiness. And here am I in my clean white clothes appearing to have my act together but knowing full well that the inside of me is as dark and distorted as the scenery around me.
See, I am bravely admitting that recently the call or the lure of the world had my attention. Let me relate to a preaching I heard recently…John the revelator/beloved was in “great admiration” when he saw the “great whore”. She was arrayed in purple and scarlet and decked with gold and precious stones. The preaching warned that if John, the man who sat at the bosom of Jesus was admiring this woman then we too need to be careful not to get caught up in her allure.
Well, since my heart is deceitfully wicked I have be battling thoughts of wanting to take part in the world sinfulness. As a good Christian knows when these thoughts come they need to cast them down and brought into captivity. However, in the recent months I have been dwelling on them and they have gotten bigger and uglier. But after this weekend I felt like God showed me…this is the world. This is what it has to offer. Do you want it?
It’s like the blinders have been removed from my eyes. What was I thinking and dwelling on? Something that would only leave me empty with no fulfillment? How can I be so dumb? I thought about the move of God I felt in service earlier in the week…the Spirit of God was moving so thick amongst the youth I was with. The Word of God pierced my soul and heart and let me know that if I struggle and don’t let go of God He will bless me. Which was completely amazing because not to many days before I had envision my finger tips holding the alter of God barely hanging on but telling Him, no matter what I’m not going to let go. God knows where I am and He knows just what I need to get my eyes back into focus and I am so thankful to Him. It makes me think…”who is man that thou are mindful of him?” Why Lord do you care so much for me God? I can confirm that it’s the goodness of God that leads man to repentance.
Psalms 23:6- Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
1 comment:
keep going straight onto the narrow path and then at the end you wont have to deal with those problems anymore.
- little miss sunshine
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